Dear Diary
30th April 2021
April came to an end today! It started with me coming out of the isolated life and working towards better health. I decided to go back to my Zumba classes, unfortunately, it was too late, as the world out there started to bend its knee in front of rising COVID-19.
Every phone call became scarier to receive, closed ones testing COVID-positive and the worst was lost someone close to my heart. This loss was unbearable and unfair. Maybe God saved her from more suffering. Maybe I’m wrong and not the right person to say this, but maybe she is in a better place now.
She was my support system, simply talking to her uplifted the mood. That made the “Moving on” more difficult, and still is! There is a very common proverb “Time heals everything”, but this wound that she gave has left a scar in her family’s and friends’ hearts including mine! LIFE is a big hell journey & we’ll face lots of problems in order to survive it.
During this time i’ve realized one thing that she wanted me to be a happy & better person and remain positive, and that is how I’ll try to spend the rest of my life.
The only thing I would like to say that we all in a vulnerable state and at greater risk due to the virus, we have to take special care of ourselves and our loved ones.
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03 Feb 2021
So the last time we were here was October and gosh what a day it was! Looking back at that day feels like I have come a long way. But today I am not here to talk about motherhood or mom rage I am here to talk about setting goals!
Now I know we are in February and it doesn’t make any sense why I am talking about setting goals. But here’s a fact setting goals has nothing to do with year beginning or year-end goals! You can set your goal no matter how big or small they are at any place, any time or any day or month.
Have you asked yourself recently?
If you carry on with your life exactly as you are now, where you will be in the next 5 years?
Okay, 5 years feels too absurd as most of us are not even sure what the next day will bring for us. But case in point, if the thought of “no goals” scares you (like it is to me now), then it’s time to make a change.
Not next month, not tomorrow TODAY!
The things we desire will never fall into our lap. This has been a harsh realisation for me. But this is not going to keep me away or discourage me in any sort. I am channelizing my thoughts and getting a clear vision on who I want to be and where I want to be in the coming years.
I am trying to visualising my best future self.
I am focusing on all the decisions I’ll take to support the things I am craving in life and watch as my life transforms.
After all YOU ARE WORTHY OF MORE. YOU DESERVE MORE.
At what phase of your goal you are in? Let’s Talk! my DMs and comment section is always open!
Only you can change your life. Nobody else can do it for you.
8th Oct 2020
Dear Diary!
Today is one of the first day that I have started writing this e- kindda diary, for my own personal sake!
Why?
Because these COVID times have triggered a lot of negativity in my behavior which I definitely don’t intend to keep inside. Call it a rant or casual talk or simply just skip it! But I’ll be here whenever I will feeling good-bad.
I have read and heard so many times, that maintaining a journal helps a lot psychologically. As I am writing it down it, I intend not to hurt anyone’s feeling, in fact, a way towards working on my own issues and channelizing positivity.
New York-based clinical psychologist, author of Peaceful Parent, Happy Kids, and parenting coach, Laura Markham in the context of Writing down/journaling says “The more you can express your emotions honestly, the less likely you will accumulate anger. This deeper level of self-care goes way beyond a bath or a massage.”
And its true!
As I am writing this down, I have become conscious of my thoughts and already in the process of identifying the neglecting feeling that I have been suppressing.
Today, I actually realized that Mom rage is a thing! And it must not be neglected. I completely understand that I am not the only mom in this situation, but it is a less discussed topic for conversation or mom influencers covers on social media.
I have realized that even if you have family and friends moms struggle alone as they feel ashamed. Look at me, even I am writing here because I know very few people are going to read it.
Another reason for doing this is because I have begun saying this to me that my daughter deserve a better version of me.
I am intending to take small steps, the first thing I will do is I will begin with proper sleep or will get more sleep.
So that’s all from me for today !! Sharing below some other articles to help you if you are reading this!
See you soon!!
B-bye until then.
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